Rambling thought

Tonight I found out that my ex, the man who repeatedly asked me to have children with him, is now 4 months along in a pregnancy with the girl he assured me "was his best friend only". 

As soon as 3 weeks ago we spoke and he never said anything. I had actually considered having kids with this man. We had been friends since we were 15 years old. At 35, both our options were narrowing and I thought our friendship might just be enough...

I am so much more upset than I imagined.